HAIR IN MY FACE USED TO ANNOY ME

Blasting: The Cranberries- Linger

Movies to catch:
1) Last Kiss - Zach Braff & Rachel Bilson!
2) One Hour Photo - Gives me dejavus.
3) The Night Listener - Cos the guy from One Hour Photo is in here :D
4) United 93 - Relive the scenes?

Morning, rude awakening.
Sister screaming, mother shouting.
Sister crying, mother thrashing. I got out of bed.
Stared at the sister squatting beside the table,
face red, and teary.
Helpless. Mother grumbling. I shouted.
Sister throwing fucking tantrums.
Mother throwing everything around. Afraid.
Sister locked herself up in the room.
I screamed. Lectured.
Sister crying.
As always. Forced her to unlock the door. Tired and frustrated.
Went back to bed. Blocked out the devils.

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Few days ago, I finally hung out with Ruth & Tim. Went to Esplanade to have the chocolate milkshake Tim introduced. YUMMY. Search for Fuji polaroid films were not successful, guess I'll just have to get them at Kodak Express :\ Can't wait to go out next Saturday, Aslinda's b'day eve. Shopping & crapping & camwhoring! Okay, nothing much to say. So..

i. love is _______________.

ii. i think after we die, we ____________________.

iii. i feel like i am ___________________.

Fill in the blanks, loves.

YOU

WOOOOOOOHOOOOO.
I'm not feeling high or anything, but I just feel like screaming. I'm doing my RJ right now but I got distracted :D Yah, as usual right. I feel for so many things right now, I'm a person with overloaded feelings. No good. I'm also a binge thinker. No good. My hair is falling off my head. EEEE, I just got kissed by a mosquito, RARR, itchy.

These few days had been quite alright, it's been getting better actually. Hope the new class bonds just like dear old W16M! :D Maths today was alright, everyone in my team was awesome. Lisa, Dinie & Mitchell, on with so many things ar! Prepared answers for worksheet and I finished up the PPT as usual again lah. Hahaha. Today Afah came down to level 4 to chit chat with Nana & Me! Because the holes at the corners of the level were occupied, we had no choice but to go to W1 instead, haha. Stayed outside Camel'sAdel's class and then continued chit-chatting. Hahahaha. Afah was so funny! I want to pinch her cheeks man. I hope this chit-chat session continues for the whole of this 2nd semester. By then, I would be having 6 packed full-flat stomach even without the practice of crunches, hurhur.

MSN with Nana was definitely HARDCORE! Hahahaha! Nak lagi Nana? Aku punya perut tak jalan dulu lah. We shall continue this tomorrow during my Cognitive module. Hahaha. Fun to the hell man, I laugh by myself like a retard in front of the laptop. ZI XUAN!! =So now, I'm torturing Zack, MOODY MOOD AR! Hahahah. Kkkbye.

Pretty Ugly

Hello.





So now what, you're not talking to me?

EVERYONE IS CRAZY NOWADAYS =D
Good thing, good thing.

The class is starting to not become a bore anymore. So good thing too. I want polaroid films and my holga :( Anyway, on my way home today, I saw Aslinda and Firaj! So cute together lah. Hahaha, can't wait to meet up with her after this week! Miss Ruth & Muks also! Ok lah, if Tim is reading this, Tim also okay. Hahahaha. LOVE YOU ALL!

Blasting: Straylight Run- Existentialism on Prom Night



It's like someone just died.
It's like music suddenly just disappeared.
It's like the world is dying.

RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I don't want to go school tomorrow, the thought of thinking of what to wear is worse.

ALAAA, Mungkin Nanti playing in my head the whole day today sia.
I'm like listening to Lifehouse and I'm almost crying. How fucking bad can this be. Mixed up feelings and I feel like I'm cut up and thrown all over the place. Fuck.

Replies:
Ruth- You nehnehpok ahpunehneh. I miss you so much, miss you like fuck. Especially right now when I'm in such a mood. I need your huge huge bear hug! :'(
Charlene- This blog template not I make one lah! I cannot make such nice templates. When I have the mood I'll do one for W16M okay? :)
Nana- GAWD, MY MOOD NOW #%$$^$#^
Thong- Hahahaha, I need your cold jokes now! :(

WHAT I DID TODAY

Okay, this is what I did in class today:
GAWD,
the internet connection here in W2 sucks like shit. Cannot go anywhere at all! This is bad, very bad, very very bad. Life in class is already like d-e-a-d, with the know-it-alls. Who likes know-it-alls. I knew it. No conflicts with the previous class, and now life wants to throw me some people who just likes to find trouble with me. So now, I have to learn how to deal. Yay for me, another life lesson. It's 9.53AM right now and I'm typing this entry in Notepad because the internet connection is as pathetic as ever. Everyone is so far away from me! :(
Although Chandra is like right opposite my class, but I STILL DON'T SEE HIS BIRD FACE :(
G102, Cognitive getting suckier lah. Used to like Cognitive. Okay, I should stop hating the present, and cling on to the past. MOVE ONNNNN LAH FOR GOD'S SAKE & YOUR SAKE. But I can't do it cos Nana's blog entry is making it worse! NANA, STOP YOUR EMO ENTRIES, IT'S NOT HELPING ME! Now I really think twice about changing school! BUT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO AND EVERYONE IS SO HAPPY FOR ME BEING IN A PHARMACY COURSE. BOO, SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.
Sorry, these few days (or for the next 16 weeks) I'll be in quite a complaining mood :(

How many :( faces am I going to continue with man, I need :)

THEN IT WAS AFTER SCHOOL! WOOOHOOO.
Went over to W1 to look for Zack and then slacked and talked about our classes with Syam. Waited for Nana and then went out of school and headed to town. Tim called, so met him at Lido for a while just to talk and laugh at him for fun. Of course, me and Nana went to esplanade again! There was a free performance by this Malay acapella group, who was so cool lah. Weather was hot, bought traffic light ice-cream! Hahaha, bliss. Then I got so tired, I became a blur queen and ended up having the exercise of my life. Shan't elaborate anymore because I'm sleepy and I still have to wake up bloody early tomorrow morning to meet AFAH! Hahahaha, free tickets to Escape.

Can't wait to torture Zack :D
Goodnight, and be happy.

TELL ME WTF DO YOU DO?

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
Having a day from hell. Sorry, never meant to be this vulgar, but whatver you know. Yes, new layout. Too lazy to go and find time to make my own templates so got this off blogskins.com. Still nice and clean, except that the space here is so teeny weeny for you guys to read. Strain your eyes! :D Okay ya, so you all should know the gist of this whole entry right here.

& I'M HERE TO COMPLAIN/BITCH/PANGSAI.

First day of school, yadayada, new class, yadayada, new classmates and new attitudes.
Seriously, the atmosphere of my class is quite neutral. I know, it's just the first day of school, what the hell am I to complain about. But oh well, I guess today is just shit. Just like how my menses had to come and ruin everything.

Was really looking forward to going home then! Waited for him, her and him and her. Then in the end went home with llama. Keep hitting me, watch out you.

Oh well, let's just see how tomorrow goes, I want to go out after school =(
Hope the rest of the W16Mians are having a good time in their new class.

Justin Timberlake's latest album is irritating, his high-pitched voice, and the irritating.. aiyah, everything irritating lah.

Hahaha, POOF. I'm so tired =\ yawn. My daddy was so nice to me, he rang me and told me right at my face. "EH, TOMORROW DINNER AH! REMEMBER! OR DAY AFTER TOMORROW! -evil laughter- BYE BYE." I love my father, he is so nice sometimes. Cos I blanja what, again :D Okay. Today llama & tim came all the way from Tamp to lovely YCK. Hahahaha, 32474657823 hours of bus ride before reaching my place. Then Syam had me taken aback when he alighted at the stop from 855. Then 4 of us went to Casuarina Prata! So many lame & cold jokes + taken abacked silences + laughter = goodness. Hahaha. Oh tuhan.

Then went to Bugis, the guys went shopping! I wanted to get a new bag also but didn't have the mood to shop and stand in front of mirrors. Shall go with Aslinda the next time, MISS THAT GIRL. Bad things happening to her lah, why like that! She & Pakistan boy. Haha. Then the whole day today was lepak & lepak & lepak! Made a new friend, Natasha! Who was so cute and I just want to go out with her the next time again, at night, and scare her. Hahahaha.

Nananana, got high on Milo, once again. Gosh, 855 was flooded with Tamils. Hahaha, I don't like it okay. & once again! I HAVE SOO MANY NEW FRIENDSTER MESSAGES, & thankfully, no more indians but older melayus and ugly cheenas! OH TUHAN, HELP ME. This random guy gave me his handphone number and said he wants to give me a good time. No thank you :)

Okay, going crazy with Nana Banana. Bye.

RED, RED, RED!!

I love how my hair smells like now, hahaha, sounds wrong. Anyway, to prevent myself from being hooked onto the computer today, I went out with my mommy who had a secret date. Haha, okay then I went to J8 to have my free cut & color at Jean Yip and now, I'm having red highlights and a super bob hair! WOO. Not that I look nice with it or anything, I don't know.

Well, past few days had been hanging out at Esplanade again, oh yes. And busy, busy, busy with the shoes and stuffs. Now I feel so random, so mind the way I blog. Yesterday night I had prata with my parents. I swear I've never seen such horny parents before, oh my goodness, shan't elaborate on that too much. I love them to death :D

Monday, I blanja prata. Waaaaaaaah, okay nevermind. Tim's bugging me to call Muks phone, so I'll go now. Toodles!

Just No Mood For Life

Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes,
You're ready to break,
Don't look away.

AHHH, Secondhand Serenade songs really serenade me to death.
I DON'T LIKE BEING EMO, but it's actually just a mixed-up feeling of being sad + lonely. But I don't know why I'm like that, it sucks, damn. Anyway, last night I wanted to liberate myself. So after a busy day of meeting-up here and there, going to the office here and there, getting stocklists here and there and everywhere was here and there.. I met up with the usual people at Lido. Liberation it was! We crapped, laughed, and everything I almost wanted to vomit. Then after that it was Buddies' Night Out again. Of course, we went to Esplanade again! It's like our second home now. Going out and not going to Esplanade gives me the hibbie jibbies. Hahaha.



Ew, I hate how I look these days. I look like crap. ARGHHH.
Shit lah, this is worse than the usual mood swings I have. I guess it's WORK that it's growing on me and some people just had to make it feel worse, thanks a whole lot.

& NOW, ALL I WANT IS A NEW CAMERA. I NEED TO GO DOWN TO HARBORFRONT!!!

Alright, before I explode now and go on bitching and burn the whole house down, I want to go now. Be happy ducklings you guys.

AWWWW :(

"It's driving down the familiar street alone around sundown and the sunlight streaming in through the car windows. That's when I miss him the most. When I think about the beaches and the music and his house. I don't know if it will ever be the same. If he'll drive by and pick me up in front of my gate ever again.

Yesterday, I talked to him four times on the phone. One, while he was in line to check into his dorm. Two, once he got settled into his dorm. Three, while he was walking down Frat Row with some new friends. And four, late at night, just a recap. Still, I think the best part was when he said, "Bye. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Tomorrow.

Future."

Who hates that feeling.

Go & Die You Bloody Robot.

ROAR!

These past few days had been AWESOME. Thank you Nana & Syam! :D
I can't imagine the days without them already. I don't want school to start, NOOO. I've been going out alot. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. It's mainly because, I'm bored. And I don't want to die in front of this stupid laptop. I complain about being unemployed but in truth, besides the whole 'living off what little savings I have' thing, I actually really love it. I get to sleep late, sleep in and sleep some more. Hoho.

Because it's past midnight, I usually go on crank. So bear with me, thank you for your cooperation. The most irritating thing now which is making me go all over the place is first of all, MY CANON IXUS I DIED & I NEED HELP WITH THE HUNDREDS OF PAIRS OF SHOES WHICH NO ONE IS BUYING FROM ME & NEED FUNDS FOR NEW CAMERA! Definitely sucks, right down to the very core. Sorry about this post today because of the fact that I've been good today, staying home, doing housework, cleaning bird and lizard shits which I'm quite getting used to. My granny's everyday screamos which makes my brain throb every second of her voice. OH TUHAN.

Going to town with the sister tomorrow, dental appointments. Speaking of that, I've not been going for check-ups on teeth for the fact that we're already in Polys which doesn't provide free services. Grrr. Okay anyway, I'm quite irritated now. So bye. Photos another time.

No Title.

BOO!
I'm baaaack after the many crazy days I spent outside with peoples. Everyday was funny, funny, funny. So funny Nana had to even blog about me being stupid.

LOVE YOU PAULA SATUBUKIT! (Don't shy please, I'm also shy. Hoho.)
Thanks for last night. Now I know why you love being so emo. The path I walked from STC to your house was filled with intense atmosphere man, I feel it even. Hahaha, the expressway was one crazy place. Maybe I'm crazy, I don't know what I'm talking even. Okay, so I finally reached your house and we got married in your room, yes just for yesterday. Hahahaha. Oh man. Thanks for the long roundabout to Zouk from the confusing bus stop. But I was thankful we were 1 hour late because the thing started exactly at 8PM, so it wasn't that bad. Sorry, I stoned during the thing cos we were like standing in front of one sucky band with the lead singer who looks like Joe and the drummer who stared at me at times and I was freaked out so I had to find someone to secretly message! HAHAHAHA, I KNOWWW. & plus I was standing at quite an awkward position which made me feel so tall and I hated it. Sometimes it sucks to be tall you know. Thank you for nudging me so many times, made me want to laugh so much but I could only tahan within myself. Haha. Congrats to Jayne Tham, the new Miss 17! :D I was standing right in front of the stage, I thought you couldn't see me. Haha, at least I got a goodbye wave from you! Hoho, hooray for you again. Love the hair, now I need super strong wax.

So after Zouk, me & Nana cabbed down to Esplanade and lepaked with Adel and his friends. ROKOK AGAIN, bohong me. Nevermind, at least I got to smack his bontot. HAHAHA. So now Nana pokes, I smack. After that I followed Nana home. Decided we should do a bit of snapping here and there...

I think I like to look like ghost. Haha. Okay, then the bus I took broke down at midnight and this aunty just had to nag and nag at the bus driver, I feel so sorry for him. No choice, had to wait for another 855 home. I love Bus 855. The journey is super bumpy and the atmosphere in the bus just keeps me thinking of things. I like to think. Hahaha, OLD WOMAN.

So today was another day. Jadey called me and asked me to accompany her to school because her laptop was screwed up with viruses and spywares. Hahah, like what her friend said, "RP want to act high-class only. See lah, now so many problems." We spent the whole afternoon at the library, freezing to death. A series of cold jokes followed and I just couldn't tahan the guy at the helpdesk, frikking annoying and he thinks he's a know-it-all. I shall not continue ranting on because I can feel the yawns already.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO ESPLANADE! I'm addicted to that place already.

You Rocks My Pantat & Tetek.

Okay, so that's Arab Street for you. There's more actually, those are a few of what we took. See tableau-ed for more. Can't wait for the next click! Okay, so no more headache, I finally got what I wanted for tmr's event. Thought of garbage bag actually, black what, also punk. Hahaha, okay not funny, nevermind. I blogged yesterday actually but stupid dick, the whole thing refreshed and my magical words disappeared right in front of my eyes. So yah, I went out with Nana the bananarama. She was high and crazy, as usual. Which made me more crazy. After shopping at Peninsula for the supposedly punk stuffs we were about to venture, we decided to take a berak. So we makan at the usual underground place and watched people poke each other to death and skate. Oh tuhan, that was like the optimum temperature of Nana. Okay takpa. Then we continued the tiring search for inspiration. But not very fruitful.

ALRIGHT, so today I finally went out with Jadey after 2436532452 years of not seeing her. LURB YOUXSX. Hahaha, ew. Okay, I decided to give her the $20 ZARA voucher, which made her so happy and love me more. Walked around town and bought mountains of thingalings before we proceeded to Bugis to put our dirty hands on everything we saw. I SHOULD STOP. Then it started raining like all of a sudden at YCK. I was drenched like fuck, luckily I wasn't wearing white but stripes. Hahaha. Dropped by Jade's place before I cabbed home. Then the taxi driver just had to come up with an issue for me to blog about. For a moment I thought he wanted to commit suicide by swerving the vehicle into another vehicle and let us both die together. He was telling me how dangerous it is for taxis to drive under such weather conditions where the tyre would bring the car off the road if they were to travel at so and so. Luckily I'm still alive to blog here. The taxi driver is damn cute lah. Hahaha. Okay, here's to paula satubukit.
AIYAH, I CANNOT PUT YOUR PHOTO LAH, MAYBE BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO CHIO ALREADY. NANA, YOU'RE CUTE OKAY? SOO CUUTE. kthxbye.

Too Much Time At Hand

I feel I'm blogging almost everyday now, NOOOOOOOOO! Someone date me please, please please please pleaseeee.

It's Not That We're Scared, It's Just That It's Delicate.

Listening: Coldplay- Scientist

These past few days had been alright, kind of those "surprise, surprise" thing going on. Last night was super scandalous, and I know Nana's secrets! Hahaha. Well, so then today we went to Arab St. with Syam, Joe and met Nana later on. Took photos at back alleys, my fave! Hoho. Then we went shopping at Bugis Village for punk clothes for the 17 event. It's very difficult and it's giving me headaches. Jayne gave me a few pointers, hmm. I think I'll get junk food tees :D Woohoo. Let's see, then Monday I'm going out with Miss Piggy 4, whom I've not been seeing for donkey years. I want want want so many things, I should be locked somewhere.

I feel I'm neglecting alot of things. My family. My mom.

Ahh, I suddenly miss Prasetha with every bones in my body :(

"Random note: I will not be the first one to speak (even though I've already been the first, second, third, fourth, and fifth and also left three messages). And if he never calls me again (or back SOON for that matter), I'll always think of him fondly. As an asshole. I thought my waiting-by-the-phone-for-a-jerk-to-call days were over. Instead, now I'm on my waiting-by-the-phone-for-the-boyfriend-to-call-but-maybe-not-the-boyfriend-or-someone-who-cares-but-IDON'TKNOW-because-he-won't-give-me-a-fucking-opinion-and-is-leaving-me-hanging-alone-constantly days. Apparently I have to be more specific about what kind of people I want to wait by the phone for by. Whatever. Whatever whatever whatever. WHATEVER, I say."